You might be wondering what a "health story" pertains to. Don't worry I am alright if that's what you are wondering! Well I cam up with this idea to share my story about how I became interested in health and fitness. I would also like to do this for fashion and crafts. So here it is!
My love for health and fitness began about two years ago. But, this story really begins when I was about nine or ten. This is when I lost gymnastics {that's another story}. I felt lost in life, like I had no meaning and could never pursue anything ever again. At this point in my life I was sad and didn't care anymore about what I ate, what I did to my body, how I treated myself, how I treated others, in fact I focused so much on school and what others expected from me, that I completely forgot about myself and my well being.
As two or three years went by, all I cared about was school, school, and school. I am not saying I regret anything I did in my life and I wouldn't change a thing. This is how I coped with the loss of something that I truly loved and cared for. Anyway, two or three years passed and I began noticing that my body wasn't working the way it used to. I couldn't go up a flight of stairs without going out of breath, and I was having symptoms of hypoglycemia.
This scared me, it really did and still does. To this day, I am afraid that one day I just won't have the fuel in my body to continue and that my body will shut down on me. So around this time last year I began to research everything I could on the body and health and how I should be treating my body, what I should eat, how I should exercise, etc. etc.
Summer before freshman year of high school I began to work out and start trying to eat healthier. I found many alternatives to the bad foods I was eating and made an effort to start a food journal again and track my progress. This continued and my love for health and fitness grew and grew.
| This was me beginning high school, before everything went downhill. |
Freshman year of high school began and things got complicated. I thought I would be able to juggle it all and I thought I would be like super woman and do everything and be everything. It turns out that life isn't all we expect it to be. High school was a big, HUGE let down for me. In fact this has been one of the worst school years ever!
I stopped my effort to eat better and increase the diversity of foods I eat, I wouldn't track my progress, I began eating ice cream and cake in large amounts and eating tons of fried foods. I let all the people telling me I was weak and small and telling me I could never be strong, I let them get to me.
Today I look at myself in the mirror and for the first time in my life I am disappointed. Not by the way I look or the fact I am not as skinny as I used to be, or the fact that I am short. I am disappointed in how I act, how I treat myself, how I treat others, my lack of motivation!
To be honest, I am not sharing this to make anyone pity me or feel bad for my lack of energy and motivation to move forward. I am doing this mostly for myself. Here is a little something I have decided to say to myself when I feel like I am not in control:
I CAN DO ANYTHING I WANT TO DO! NO ONE SHOULD DICTATE MY LIFE OTHER THAN MYSELF. I HAVE THE SAME OPPORTUNITIES AS THE GUY NEXT DOOR, I SHOULD NOT TAKE THAT FOR GRANTED. GOD LOVES ME AND HE WILL HELP ME GET THROUGH THE ROUGH PATCHES IN LIFE AND ALLOW ME TO PREVAIL.
I know that this journey has not been easy for me. I took all the information I learned and dumped it out the door. But tomorrow is a new beginning and I don't want to stay stuck with the person I used to be. Not just in the physical aspect but also just myself. It is okay to have a bad day, but don't have a bad life.
I want everyone who reads this to smile and focus on the positive and wonderful things we have! I still have time to develop a better diet and train my body. If you want to get better grades this semester in school, do it. Just work hard and don't let anything stand in your way.
I think my biggest mistake has been not taking the time I have and using that time wisely. I sit an watch TV until late at night, I made stupid excuses not to help my mother, and I let other people tell me what is right and what it isn't.
Personally, it is very hard for me to develop new habits and change my lifestyle, but if others can do it, why can't I?
I hope that you got something out of this, I know that this was something I really needed and although it is 1 in the morning, I am glad that I wrote this for you guys and maybe now you know how I got into health and fitness and how I plan to continue my journey and not give up {like I have on many things}.
Remember, you can do anything! Just work hard to get to where you want to be and you will get there!
xoxo, Ana
P.S. - I apologize for this odd post, I was having a rough day and just randomly started writing! I still hope you got something out of this post and hopefully I did too.