As you may have noticed, I have kind of been slacking a bit on my blog recently. This isn't isolated toward my blog, I have been neglecting my overall well being and my goals for the future.
Today I decided to do kind of like a "Progress Report" for my yearly goals or resolutions. If you weren't aware, I made this blog in order to track my progress on myself, my style, my fitness, my projects, etc. This blog makes me accountable and gives me reason to keep doing exercise (other than my well being) and to wear nice clothes, and to be a better person to others.
Well, since I have been extremely busy, I have put everything on HOLD. My blog, my fitness, my overall self, I put everything but school on pause. Although I really enjoy getting good grades, they still aren't the best and I have really been procrastinating and haven't been handling my problems head on.
So, I want to look back on my mistakes and see how I can fix them as well as myself.
~ 1 ~
Help out in my community more often.
Other than occasionally helping my Biology teacher after school, I haven't done much to improve my community at all. I plan on getting my paperwork for school signed and sent to the guidance counselor {to get the hours for graduation} and then find new organizations or places that need help.
~ 2 ~
Make Healthier Lifestyle Choices
Yeah... No. I have been eating more fruit and squeezing in the occasional workout, but it has not been going well. The food tracker only works if you actually write down what you eat.... I always forget or feel ashamed and do exactly what I am not supposed to do! This aspect of my life needs work. I need to talk to my doctor about all the things wrong with me, make a plan of action, and actually do what is necessary to get myself back on track!
~ 3 ~
Pray more, worry less.
Another journal that is still sitting on the same shelf, untouched as always. I still pray at night, but not as in depth as before. Sometimes I fall asleep midway into my prayers or I forget to pray for someone because it slipped my mind. I just hope that I can improve my relationship with God and really work on how I manage my time in order to really converse with Him as necessary.
~ 4 ~
Work hard at everything I do.
This one is probably the goal that I failed at the most and the one I am most disappointed in myself for. I realize that I am my own biggest critic, but I seriously haven't been doing my best at anything, absolutely nothing. In school I am mediocre, usually I have all As and suddenly I have three Bs and I don't seem to care. Not only that but I have been SUPER lazy recently and just haven't been doing what I am supposed to be doing to improve myself and help others. I just wish the last three months could be swiped clean and I could start over, but I can't.
~ 5 ~
Be a better person to myself and those around me.
Part of being a lady (and a respectable human being) is being a good person not only to those around you but to yourself as well. As I said before I am my own biggest critic. I wish I could say that I should cut myself some slack, but that only took me into the direction of the typical lazy, boring teenager. That is not the person I want to be! But I also need to work on being kinder and more courteous to the people around me. Overall I have failed the past three months in my book. But I can change that. I will change that, I am determined to change that!
Ever since my older sister became a "teenager" I promised myself that I would never become lazy, snobbish, conceded, self-conscious, and mean. To see myself headed toward that direction really made me rethink my choices and made me feel really letdown by my own self.
I want to stay that confident, quirky, kind, hardworking, creative young woman I was before entering high school. I know that this is a time where some people struggle keeping their true identity, but I am not one of those people.
My plan is to set aside time everyday to write down what I ate, write down my prayers really focus on my relationship with God, go to confession on Saturday and mass on Sunday, to clean my area, do exercise when time permits {rather than sitting on my butt watching TV shows or scrolling through Pinterest}, help my parents, work on my overall self and how I treat others.
It's a simple plan, and with small changes every day I hope to really get the happiness that I want.
xoxo, Ana
